Sunday, October 22, 2006

I don't know what has come over me but now have a need to set foot in about every country possible. I'm thinking I might just take the nanny job in Spain for the summer and for spring break I'm trying to go to Europe with Dale. We're trying to go to about three different countries though I don't know if it's going to happen since he always forgets to call me. asshole. Aaanyways if dale falls through I might go to London with courtney to visit jill and maybe go to Italy as well. If Spain falls through I might do that program over the summer where I can go to New Zealand, Australia, Tailand, Dominican or other places for a month. AAAnd I've decided I'm definitely going abraod next fall.. either to Italy or Greece.

crazy.

It's been about four years since I've been out of the country and I need to go somewhere else besides New England.. preferably escape for a few months. I want to learn a new culture, soak it all in and maybe even stay long enough to pick up another language. I want to experience so much and gain new perspectives. I feel so worthless just sitting here not going out and trying new things.. I'm getting bored here and sometimes I just want to wake up in a completely different place where everything is new and exciting.

Mostly I'm just worried that one day I'm going to wake up and be 70 and look back at a boring life full of regrets of opportunities i never took. I look at people who just pick of their lives and move to different countries and travel all over the world and I envy that. I feel like many times comfort hold me down... but I don't want to be held down by anything.

Bianca
10:44 PM