Tuesday, August 16, 2005

ahhh i was on the phone with deals for about an hour today. and what's fucked up is that im seeing her and everyone else in less than 2 weeks. in 12 days to be exact. thats right. UNH is no longer months away. i no longer have to road trip to see my loves... not that i didnt enjoy... but. shit. parties again, everyone is walking distance, just the feeling of having everyone i ever need being right there and the fact that i can have that soon makes me soo happy i can't even explain though i'm sure you all know what i'm talking about. how is summer over. three months somehow crept right past me.. i thought it would take for fucking ever then all of a sudden my last day of work crept up and im already making lists of what i need to buy and what i need to pack.

its weird.
all summer i tried to jam pack all of my time with my friends..i spent the day in the city with my family and as summer is rearing its end i regret not spending enough time with them. today was the first time i had a family meal with them all summer.. that's pretty pathetic. when we were in the city we went to a restaurant that we went to a lot when i was little and we went to battery park [which is the park i practically grew up in] and walked around there were some really amazing times.. we'd go there every saturday and then when it was night time we'd rollerblade through the entire park and after the trade center closed we'd break in and rollerblade indoors and always get chased by security haha.. all these memories came back.. this was my first time back there since i moved and i dont know.. being there again made me miss hanging out with my family and how things used to be.. and made me regret all the times i rushed through family meals so i could get the fuck out and hang out with my friends. It was weird i just sat there all nostalgic about how things used to be while i was sitting there right next to them sharing pastries and coffee. this whole summer i figured, damn i have all the time in the world to hang out with my family.. i mean i AM living with them for the next 3 months.. but now that theres 2 weeks left and i spent a minimal amount of time i can't help be fully support the point that you really dont appreciate what you have until it's gone.

Bianca
2:20 AM