Today started off really sad. Blah.. my mind we elsewhere during school. Alex and i are on a break now... and I was upset about it. I got home and my mom knew something was wrong so I started explaining it to her on the way to SAT class. and she gave me her advice and perspective. and it's probably the most refreshing thing i've heard in a long time. and it made me feel so much better. here's somethign she said. "It's not a matter of win or loss. If you experienced and learned.. you will always come out better than you did before." Then after class she came to pick me up and she was like. I want to take you out... I want to make you happy so we went to Starbucks but it was closed, then we went to Blockbuster but there weren't any movies we wanted so we went to the diner and just talked.. well ate too.. ofcourse. GREEN GODDESS SAUCE BABY!!! hah.. so wait Jess. did you eat out a green goddess? ...good times. but anyways.. so I had such a good time talking to my mom. You guys don't understand... we hardly have a mother daughter relationship.. but she was understanding and completely listened to what I had to say and my views and thoughts and she gave me her straight forward opinions and her advice. I needed it really bad... and now I see everything differently.. even outside the whole me and Alex thing.. I just see life a little different. A whole new era to our relationship!! hah... so I dunno im really happy about it right now because me and her... we are on such different levels. but we found some even ground and I think she understands me better... I usually never ever turn to her because she just would NOT understand. but I guess I thought wrong. hmm that tends to be the case quite frequently. But yeah. im going to stop with this pointless babble. just wanted to put it out there.... IM HAPPY! lol um. and I think im going to drivers ed tomorrow. NICE yeeeeaaaaaaaaaahhhh. I'm getting this shit over with. Me, license. NOW.
Bianca
11:14 PM