Guh. Had such a rough day today. During band I was in a bad mood, I got my transcript and my PSAT scores today..and.. yeh. SO fucking horrible, I crashed and burned when I saw the papers. I knew my mom was going to be pissed when she saw them... this was during third period [my free]. I was on the verge of tears, and I just cried and got it out during research&lit. All I wanted to do was go home and be a failure... and I couldn't get my Latin re-write done during lunch. Oh and I had a Spanish quiz last period. yes! When I got home, my mom asked me if I got my PSAT scores... I said no because I knew she would get pissed and would probably not let me go to the Dissolusion concert that I've been planning on going to for months. [I missed the last one because I was grounded]... So she made me go back to school to get it. *frowns* When I got in the car I showed her the papers and she started yelling at me saying how lazy I am and how I should spend my time studying instead of going out and having a life. How I'm not going to get into any college at all. How I'm worthless, blah blah blah... and she told me that I better not be thinking about going out tongiht because I need to sit at home tonight.. and I was like, oh, thats too bad because I'm going to the concert in Rye tongiht. I planned it for over a month and I'm going.. and she was like.. oh yeh, go but I'm guna lock the doors and not let you come back. W T F. can someone explain this to me? She was like, you need to consider you're future for once..stop crying, you;re aittle baby. You deserve this. Ok, the transcript is from freshmen and sophemore year and I basically got punished for my bad grades then. and now that my moms being reminded of my past years, she feels she has tp throw them in my face and not let me go out tonight. You guys don't understand how fucking bad I wanted to go to this. It ended up being a huge fight. and I wasn;t allowed to go anywhere, so Instead Mindy came over and we went to Starbucks and rented episodes of Sex and the City and ate rice.. lol cuz I'm asian like that. I felt so bad that I didn't I got online and Alex was all like, where the fuck were you? I dedicated a song to you and everything Guh... just frustrating... I need to improve everything. so I don't end up flipping burgers...
Bianca
2:23 AM