I just got in a fight with Alex. I told him about Phill and me because I found out today that Phil has a girlfriend and Alex was wondering why I was sad about it. Hmmmm... yeah and Alex got reaally reaally upset about what I told him. I'm not going to get too into the details but basically I'm a screw up and the last thing I want is for Dissolusions to break up or for Phil and Alex to stop being friends because of me. I'm not worth them getting in a fight over. I'm not worth any of it. I'm scared that I ruined their friendship. I'm so sorry for getting in the middle of everything. It's weird but now that Phil has a girlfriend, all of it just was not worth it. People just lost trust over others.
I think that the most surprising part is that I mean enough to Alex for him to freak out over it. lol I've never ever felt like I made an impact or effected anyone. I mean c'mon on now, it's little spasian me. I'm not supposed to mean anything to anyone. I just go along with my life making it from day to day. Well, Tristan made me feel like I was something..but now that's debtable.
Basically, I suck a whole lot and I just dont know what to do with myself.
Bianca
9:31 PM