Friday, May 24, 2002

My comp, being the piece of shyt that it is, doesn't let me DL songs. So I finally got enough energy to go and get my ghetto asian cd player and bring it down here. Now what am I listening to?
"you think you're not worthy
I'd have to say I agree
I'm not worthy of you
you're not worthy of me
which of us is deserving
look at the human race
the whole planet at arm's length
and we don't deserve this place"
~Ani.
of course. So I went to Tara's after school to hang at her little beach and what not with a bunch o' people. Wow, hadn't had that much fun in a while. We buried Tara...but it didn't really work since we're retarded...we liked it. We went back and showered...Tara's mom went all asian on us tho. Lucky us right? I still have sand in my scalpal (jamie = dumbass)...sand in my scalp.
It's funny because Tara is amazing at making food. Her pasta with alfredo sauce was super orgasic. mmm orgasm lol. So I listened to some Ani with sarah...much fun. tara whipped out her.....guitar. SO SWEET. I haven't played since James stole his guitar back during april break. I forgot most of the chords. The only song I remember is Green Day-Good Riddance. I miss playing guitar oh so much. I miss the case that was always under my bed that I could turn to when I was bored. I miss the blisters. I miss pretending to be a good guitarist. I might start guitar classes in the fall, that is if my mom stops being asian for a minute. *crosses fingers*
I was helping Tara clean the dishes and we had this whole conversation about wanting to just get into a car. How it would be amazing to go off with a friend, and leave without knowing where you're going. Just to drive anywhere and see where you're car would take you. To go places you would never even think of going. To gain some perspective in life because I think everyone needs a little perspective.. Self exploration..that's what it would be, and I would have the time of my life.

Bianca
9:41 PM